I’ts part hangover, part overload of emotions from last night’s impromptu, merry family gathering. Of course I should know better than to have too much Champagne and in the process, sadly mismanage anxiety, stress, unexpected excitement and affection, all rolled into a strange concoction.
All is quiet here now, hardly a sign remaining of yesterday’s loud and joyous celebration, save for a few unwashed Champagne flutes on the kitchen counter. And a half bottle of fine Chardonnay in the fridge that I’ll be forced to eventually consider, with or without affable company.
Confusing thoughts fill my brain however, I’m still unable to assemble my mysterious puzzle. Through the woes of last night’s migraine, they kept assailing me, Mindfulness practice out the bedroom window. My poor head propped on three pillows, I kept reciting my mantra, ‘May I be happy, may I be happy… May I be happy and peaceful, safe and free, and able to care for myself…’, to no avail. Just a giant commotion throbbing in my head, coming, going, and coming again. I’m riding a satanic roller coaster.
Blissfully, this too did pass. What doesn’t kill you will make you stronger, or so they say.
After the storm, after all the foolish and useless pain, what remains, strangely, is an overwhelming sense of gratitude for life, for love, and for family.
My wish for 2020? I give you one guess.
I truly appreciate how you describe the aftermath of celebrations, this not always gentle moment that we experience once everyone is gone. Gratitude is one key, oh yes. Personally, I prepare for those days without any expectation, like if it was any other day of the year.
RépondreEffacerSo it’s even easier for me to feel that gratitude once the door closed.
In the depths of winter, how difficult it is to capture the sun! I admire your sincerity and I am sure that many recognize this call of the body and the spirit to fall into hibernation at the first freezing winds. I tend also to think "wake me up when it's all over"! Fortunately, a good coffee, a bird at the window, a snowflake that captures the light and a writing project
RépondreEffacercan be enough to shake off our lethargy. It's magic!